Today was amazing, but practically every day is amazing. Waking up in the morning is a reason to be thankful for life, existence, and a chance to love again. I am 21 days sober from alcohol and the blessings keep on coming. It’s so cool that my mindset has completely done a 180 flip. I always said to myself, when you don’t drink, you don’t have problems. I shouldn’t say problems don’t exist, but I swear, negativity is so minor. It’s pointless to stress over the things that you have no control over. Shit happens, just go with the flow and don’t let it affect your entire day. I’m sure you understand what I mean. Don’t dwell on it.
The only thing I am lacking right now is inspiration to write more music. My creative juice has run on empty. The positive side of things is that my album is complete. My creativity goes through phases, it’s either on or off. But that’s completely fine with me because I don’t want to feel pressured to write songs for the sake of writing songs. I want my emotions, heart felt feelings, confessions of my soul and my mind completely on fire, bursting with creativity. Now that is the best high that money cannot buy.
I plan on going to Ronnie King’s ranch in October with a handful of musicians working on original compositions that I wrote on guitar and I will be singing and rapping. I most definitely need a trip to the desert to decompress, be still and spend time with my son. Plus I’m at home when I’m in the studio and Ronnie always has good vibes. Miss you brother.
Tomorrow morning I’ll be in Ventura for an appointment with an orthopedic surgeon. Unfortunately, I need surgery on my hip. Apparently I run too much for being age 36, said the doctor. Running for me is not just exercise, it’s my escape and keeps my mind intact from the anxiety I deal with. It’s a better remedy than any medication my doctor can prescribe.
Don’t try and force things that you have no control over. Rest easy and don’t stress. I’m here for you. It’s an honor that you read my writings. I hope I can provide you with a positive message to keep on fighting and relax your mind, body and soul.
Til next time,