Decisions. Decisions. Decisions.
I ended up going to bed at 2am this morning. I’ll admit, I was face timing with Gabriela. I don’t know what it is because it’s tough to let go. When I love, I love completely and unconditionally. I’m sure it’s normal to make this transition smooth. I offered to try and make this relationship work again. I’ve never been one to give up on things easily, it is just the way I was raised. Persistence has always been a trait of mine.
I didn’t sleep well either. I drank too much coffee last night. There is not a single moment while sleeping that my mind goes silent. I am flooded with dreams good and bad throughout the night. I remember all of them clearly. I wish my mind would stop spinning like a hamster on a wheel, but it doesn’t. I’ve been this way since I was a child. Some people say it’s a gift because the average person doesn’t remember their dreams. Oh well.